Sunday, May 25, 2008

Why do I ignore?

Why do I show no concern on stuffs?

Why?

Firstly, it is not something that I'm willing to take up..

Secondly, I am not updated in a way or two.. Not that I want to dump someone there and answering all the things. I got no ideas on matters, no one bother to include me, update me. How you expect me to ask when I don't even know it exists. I don't know stuffs, of cause I don't dare to speak up. I'm am not lost. Just that I know NO STUFFS.

Thirdly, Since you decided that other party knows more than me and is more reliable though you will get the same answer from me. Using "just some matters", you mean we're under the same family, you can't reveal some IMPORTANT stuffs?

Fourthly, allowing people to malign and keep quiet means you agree to it. So you agree actually. With the fact that you are the one causing it.

Fifthly, I thought decision making should be done together? But why? And such a ridiculous decision is made.

Sixthly, knowing that including me is not a choice, as it is left with no choice. Got a better candidate, but not qualified. But if you going to treat me as a vase, I take it. Allowing people to critise me and kept quiet hurts me.

Lastly, I have learn how to differentiate friendship and work. Came to realise, what have been done contributes to the factor "work", friendship remains 0%.




Maybe I regard friendship as a heavy factor for motivation and life.

In friendship, I give 50%, you can give me only 10%, I am not calculative. But when I give 100% and I realised I had 10%, it matters.. Cuz I felt like a fool thinking you are regarding me as a true friend, that's why I gave 100% and ended up being a fool.

She ended her story at 1:24:00 AM

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