Thursday, April 10, 2008

Someone just told me

"it's too stupid to be pleased and getting amazed by small things, it's so 'throw-face' "

why?

I mean do I sound stupid feeling amazed by some little things?

Do I look like an idiot where I could be easily pleased with wee things done by friends?

If that is so..

I just think we might not able to click as friend..



Feeling amazed isn't something that I can control..

Showing that I'm happy isn't something I could control too..

So does it imply that I must act class, as if I know everything and stop feeling amazed by some things where people might already know since they were a toddler???

So I should act hard to cover up my happiness and let neutral expressions overtake???




Oh! Please.. If I were to do that..

I might die in my sleep..

Refusing to breathe...

When I reflect every night..




I still want to live my life till I found a job of my liking..

A guy that able to spend his lifetime with me..

A child or children where they can show love for me..

I still want my everything that I have..




I will not want kill myself in my sleep at night..

SO!

I like the way I am, getting amazed by some things where people thinks it's every-one-knows..

Showing people that I am happy for the little concern and action they do/show..

I know all my emotions shows on my face.. Everyone knows how I feel..

But I like the way I am now..

You don't like, just go away...

Stay away from me..

She ended her story at 12:37:00 AM

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