Tuesday, January 08, 2008

Actually I wanted to talk about a topic.. But apparently, I can't remember after less than 1min..

What is it actually??

Hmm.. *knock my head....*

Argh! I forget already lar.. =(

Nevermind..

Year 2008..

------> Time to change the twenty to twenty-one.. =X

Nowadays been suan by not only Red Cross buddies, but also my everyday-meeting-ever-lame-clique-6.5+0.5 that I'm 21 this year..

Others not really that much, cause if they suan me, they suan-ing themselves too RIGHT?

The age that officially attains the KEY!

What key? HAHA!

I've been holding house key for almost 10 years..

Seriously, if you suddenly post "How old are you?" to me..

I will actually think before replying you..

As I'm having the mentality of myself being 19 only..

Ya.. Y? I don't know..

Maybe at the year of 19, it's eventful for me?

No eh.. That should be at 18..

Seriously, does anyone understand what am I saying now?

I can't even think properly..

Just woke up from sleep if none realise..

I've been sleeping from 9pm till around 1am..

Woke up by sms.. And is wide awake now..

Felt like crying suddenly.. ='(

Too many things running through my mind..

Be it on personal stuffs or studies..

Actually I realised I've changed to a worse person these few weeks..

Ya.. Bad to worse..

As I'm jumping into conclusions TOO MANY TIMES..

But seriously.. Is it because there's really no more sense of security in my life?

Or what? Or too many things that happened that turns me into someone BAD..




My parents going genting with my bros and his gf..

I'm left alone when they are enjoying..

Cuz that's the study week/exam week..

I'm actually sad..

But what can I do? Asked them not to go? When I not even sure of my lesson schedule?

Sometimes I really wonder, if my only family companion, baby, ever leaves me, will I go into serious depression?

I felt like hugging him now.. But he's too comfortable in his bed in my parent's room that no matter how hard I try to coax him to come out, he just stared at me innocently with his big eyes

I just love him so much that I can't even describe..

Huiru (Kui) says I looks like baby, from expressions to even behaviour..

Oh! SHE PASSED HER DRIVING TEST!

CONGRATS EH!

I wanna go huan dao zui zui k?

When will that someone comes to bring me wherever I want to go? =(




Anyway, I rem my new year resolution..

Off my com when clock strike 1am..

HAHAHA!

Slapping myelf sia..



I don't even know what's is bothering me now..

I shall get back to sleep.. Have to wake up at 6..

Sometimes I wonder.. Does anyone care about my feelings? I'm sick of giving in to others.. Can someone just give in to me? Shall I whine and whine to attract attention? Can I just throw my temper like anyone else, as and when I like? I don't want people to think I'm old enough to care for myself.. I'm not.. I'm really not...


='( Can I scream?
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




She ended her story at 1:36:00 AM

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