Thursday, June 07, 2007

Hmm..

Mood today.. Very bad..

Now is 1am in the morning..

I forced myself to bathe and drinking tea now to keep myself awake..

Hmm.. Mood was at least a bit better during campfire..

Able to scream without anyone thinking you're mad..

Able to laugh as loud as I want.. Without ppl staring at you..

Hmm.. Well, sometimes I really wonder what is the real me and what is not..

Maybe too moody and started to think negatively again..

Was busy liaising with the cadets logistic everyday until I got almost no time to revise my common test..

PAS is totally gone case for me I think..

I really think I need to take time off from HQ and back focus on my studies..

I'm sensing my grades deteriorating though it wasn't reflected on actual marks..

But I'm afraid that I couldn't maintain my GPA 3.1 again.

What's the use of being afraid about it and not doing anything to improve on the situation right?

So ULP will be the last event I join.. Maybe focus on OA side? Or maybe not?

Well, I guess it's not the time to say anything yet..

I got not as much sleep that I had before after joining HQ..

But joining HQ actually occupies my time.. And I'm glad I had HQ events and Red Cross stuffs to busy, the year when I wasn't studying..

Looking back, I dunno how many weekends I burned at Red Cross..

I dunno how much time did I missed for the get together with my family..

Even though with all these, I'm still proud to say I dun regret joining HQ..

As I learned alot of things from there, be it knowledge or life's experience..

And it makes me a more matured person now.. =)

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PAS paper today.. NO hope liao lar!

After that went campsite at 1245pm..

Thanks Daph for accompanying me! Though it was only an hour plus, but I appreciate it..

At least someone was there to chat with me..

But you left I was so bored and no one can bitch with me liao.. =X

Check the new tents then the west room logs..

Until as last at 515pm lor..

Totally craziness lor..

Then went home and go for CVSS campfire..

Well! Was at campfire just now right?

Heh heh.. The buffet was nice.. With curry gravy and fried rice with chicken wings.. =D

Only female from HQ side again..

Well.. I wanna sing " HQ de boy boy very very stupid! wah! so stupid! wah! so stupid! " again..

Hmm.. Campfire was nice and the gift was so different and you couldn't think of it..

After that went to rivervale plaza with Ambrose, Chee Yong Sir and Weijian Sir to the mac...

I dun even know the car park of the plaza lor..

Eh! I'm very lousy I guess.. I dun even know the road at my house area well lor..

After living here for like 3 years?

Hahaha! Lousy me.. =D

Crap around at mac and well, I still laugh very loudly..

Hmmm.. Cant change already lar..

Next time I need to tell my boyfriend " eh! i laugh v loud one hor, if you cannot take it, leave me k?" =P -____________-"

Reach home, force myself to read through what the cadets send and die die also compile a list liao..

So now is revision time again.. Hope my 3 packet of Japanese tea can last me throughout the night till tomorrow morning..

Good day everyone!

Love you always!

Muacks! To all readers!

With Love,
sHoOt
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She ended her story at 1:00:00 AM

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