Monday, November 27, 2006

super depress now...

issit cuz of monday blues? cuz of my blue room? cuz of mjr? cuz of the atmosphere now? cuz of wad???????

i dunno...

i jus find that i nid to brainwash myself...

i nid to forget everything and have a new life...

my life now is aimless again...???

do i realli love nursing?

if a year ago, i'll dare to say yes loudly and proudly...

but now, the same question slapped my face...

wad is my reply?

it's still a yes... but some part is made up of a no...

a small percentage... but yet, it's strong enuf to make me wonder...

no doubt i got A for my attachment..

the only A..

but something strike me...

did i unknowingly done something?

did the teacher gave the wrong person the wrong grading...?

did she misjudge my abilities?

did she??

did she????

haiz!~

i felt so lose now...

i admit that i'm scared of failure...

who doesn't?

i jus feel that i've changed...

i've lost my real self in the process of growing...

i've also lost my confidence in the process of growing...

i've lost the courage to do things in the process too...

i've lost the most important things of life...

what is left now in me???

an empty person...

living her life without any aims..

without goals..

jus plainly living for the purpose of living..

plainly study for the purpose of studying..

for the purpose of being a student...

She ended her story at 3:36:00 AM

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