Tuesday, February 21, 2006

Sarang Heyo - means I love you in Korean

Yea readers.. I'm back again.. I have lots to say.. But just can't organise what I wanna say...

First thing that came to my mind

- The Bronze OA workshop -

Argh! Just simply screw up everything lar.. Haiz.. Quite guilty about it.. But everything came to an end at last.. I find that I really wasn't doing my job sia.. Quite throw face too.. Haiz.. Haiz.. Only got to know that I'm the DI on the eve of the workshop.. But nothing is an excuse that I didn't do a good job.. Which I should.. Meaning I do things not 'nice' enough.. Argh!!!

Also felt guilty that I refuse to become the F n B for this coming camp.. Partly is because I know I not going on Sunday.. So, it's quite bad to throw my job to others.. Partly is because, I simply didn't except to any appointment in this coming camp and thick skin enough to attend the camp.. Thinking of playing only.. Haiz... I ought to hit myself hard that everyone have to at least volunteer to do something in the camp.. Yet, I'm leaving on Sunday, which they are in need of instructors for the hike..

But I'm still in a dilemma about should I go for the hike.. Can anyone give me good advise? If I don't go to the hike, it's like I'll feel sorry for myself.. But if I don't go for my cousin 'wedding' in the morning.. It's like I'm not being fillia.. Because my first aunty sure will scold my mum.. As I missed quite a few of my cousins weddings...

Was sleeping on the sofa while daphne watch Harry Potter... I was awaken suddenly.. Because I was dreaming about me being scolded by Law sir and few others seniors instructors for not being a good DI.. Argh... Broke into cold sweat sia.. Haiz...

I need good advise.. Can anyone tell me??? haiz...

Next thing...

- Infatuation -

Okay... Some of my close friends should know I'm holding a torch for a particular guy since Sec 4 till now.. Well, I don't understand what attracted him to me.. But some of you should know I like guys who wore spects or with big eyes better... Because I like to wear specs.. But too bad lar.. I have PERFECT eyesight.. hahaz.. For big eyes is because I have small eyes.. Hahaz.. I envy people with big eyes.. My baby is included as one.. Hahaz.. He got big brown eyes.. Hahaz.. Last thing guys who know how to kayak and cycle also very attractive.. haha.. =)

People also says that you will like people who is similar to your family members.. Okay.. My brother and my father wore specs.. But I think it's quite difficult for me to find someone who's similar to my dad.. because he is way too good to my mother and his children.. Haiz.. I really feel guilty if sometimes I screamed at him.. Haiz.. But everyone should know.. I don't bad mouth my daddy.. heh heh.. But my mama is different.. Those who reads my blog should know why.. Haiz..

Third thing..

- Sick -

Okay.. I'm sick again.. I hate being sick.. Because that makes me weak and I can't eat roti prata.. =( hahaz.. Partly is because I think too much about the things on Sat.. I should have done a better job if this, if that.. haiz.. Another reason is that I ate too much curry puff from Lao Chang Kee... Hahaz.. 2 on Sunday, 2 on Monday.. Plus 3 cups of Milo .. Which is so heaty... hahaz... I now can't speak properly and my ears are red , I felt feverish.. I had terrible headache which I didn't had that for long.. =(

I'm cold at my feet.. But I'm hot at my ears.. How? What should I do? The thermometer shows ' 37.8' now..

Okay.. I got to go.. Enough of crapping.. And speaking of everything that's on my mind now.. I felt better.. That's what I like about blog.. =)



She ended her story at 11:56:00 PM

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