Saturday, October 08, 2005

Thousands, millions, zillions of emotions possessed me at this very moment...

As if I'm going to burst into tears at any time...

I just feel tightness in my chest... I can't breathe... I felt like jumping down my 13th storey flat with my baby... I felt like screaming out loud!!! I felt like... I felt like telling him I like him... But I can't... I'm afraid of the truth... Which is not what I want...

I'm just a breeze to everyone...

I've been have weird dreams lately... I dreamt of people I haven't seen for long... I'll slp at 2am, woke up at 5am... Toss and turn and sleep at 730 again... This have been happening for 3 days in a row... I have to wait till I see the sun... Weird... W-E-I-R-D is what I can say...

Am I suffering from depression or what? I don't know...

Maybe I need a shrink... Any recommendation???

I've lost my passion for a particular thing... But I just don't want to admit it... I still cling onto it knowing that the outcome, will be me falling hard onto the ground... I need a hand to pull me up... But the hand will never come... Though, I will lose nothing... But the good memories will disappear along with me letting go... And all my hard work will be wasted... Totally wasted...

Some may not know what I'm talking about... But just let me spill everything here...

She ended her story at 2:44:00 PM

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