Monday, December 20, 2004

Hi bloggy... I'm filled with a lot a lot of emotions now... Was thinking is it fate making fun of me? Why I always yearn to see him, I can't... But when I never think of him, he suddenly appear right in front of me and with SOMEONE... I heard my heart broke into uncountable pieces at that moment of time... My world full of him had just closed it doors on me... With no mercy, it slammed on me... I wanted to cry my heart out.... He was no longer there for me... But at least, he accompany me through my last sec sch life... I really wanted to cry.. Cry my heart out on someone's shoulder.... But I know, I wouldn't.... I'm not that strong, no longer as strong as last time... But at least I'm still strong... Strong enough to bare the pain... I gave up.... Gave up... No longer will see me falling into that deep and big trap again... Doors to it will shut... I will never start infatuation anymore... No longer in the past two years... I really need time... This time I'm truly hurt... Don't know why... Just truly being hurt... THE WORSE TIME!! -cries!-


She ended her story at 11:10:00 PM

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Wednesday, December 08, 2004

Well.... Filled with emotions right now... -sigh- Don't ask me why because I do not want to say why.... But let me make some announcement...
I AM OFFICALLY OUT OF SRCY AND WILL NOT BE LINK TO IT
IN ANY WAY!!!!!
period.... that's the end of my blog... shall not blog for a long time.... maybe MIA? maybe what, I don't know...
I'M GUILT-STRICKEN
I DON'T KNOW HOW TO FACE THE REALITY
OR SHOULD I SAY THERE'S NO REALITY ANYMORE?
SINCE I'M THE ONE WHO PUT AN END TO IT
I SHOULDN'T BE ESCAPING FROM THE REALITY ANYMORE
BUT LET ME SAY
I DON'T WANT IT TO HAPPEN ALSO
BUT,I'M NOT PREPARED
WHO UNDERSTAND ME?
NO ONE
I SHALL CRY IN MY HEART AND SHALL KEEP EVERY REGRETS TO MYSELF...
U DUN UNDERSTAND NEVERMIND..............







PERIOD

She ended her story at 10:01:00 AM

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