Sunday, October 23, 2005

I TOOK WINE FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE...

The taste sucks....

I'm in a slow motion world now...

And I'm losing my ability of focusing...

I'm going to s l e e p....

She ended her story at 10:54:00 PM

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Yea~~~

This week I've a wish granted... Hahaz...

I just love gatherings with my friends...

Hahaz... Those were the only times I'm Abnormal... Hahaz..

Or rather is Absolutely Normal to Toot and Moo... Lalala...

Being crappy, talkative and noisy is the normal me or the abnormal me???

Muahahaha...

I tink is abnormal..

CUZ I'M ALWAYS SO GRACIOUS DE~~~ hahahaZ...

She ended her story at 6:22:00 PM

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What a GREAT Sunday morning I had....

I was awaken by a moron-tic and idiotic child who is so anxiously wanna warn his ma that it's raining...

Child: MA!!!!!! XIA YU LE!!!! Kuai dian shou yi fu!!! ( Ma!!! It's raining!!! Take in the clothes!!! )

Well... I dunno this kid live at which floor or where is he... I jus wanna THANKS him that he woke me and I CAN'T SLEEP ANYMORE!!!!

By the way, I had a bad bad bad dream yesterday... Maybe cuz I mouth too much about others and about 'audio'... I got my retribution in my dream... I DREAMT OF MY DOG DIED... And I was in a damn small morgue squeezing with some other ppl who I has no memory off... And there was a cupboard beside me saying "Died Carcasses"!!!

Immediate reaction from me is,I vomited...

Next moment, I was burning incenses to my dog... And crying bitterly without shedding tears.. -___-"
And I kept saying :"jing zhi bu gou, jing zhi bu gou lar!" (incense papers not enuff)

:"wo yao baby de gu hui" (I want baby's bone ashes)

to dunno whoever...

What a GREAT morning I had right???????

She ended her story at 10:34:00 AM

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Thursday, October 13, 2005

Mother : Why you always go out?
Child : Because every day I see you two quarrel. I don't like to stay in the house.
Mother: Then u jolly well don't come home. I don't wanna see you in the house. Have such a lousy result still dare to talk back...

The child did not talk back... Neither did she scream at her mother...
She's only telling what she feels... But this is the reply from her mother...
Everyday the child is facing the 4 walls...
Everyday the child is alone in the house....
Everyday the child is thinking of why she has to take the hard route...
Everyday she's thinking of jumping off the 13th storey building...
Everyday is like hell to the child... But her mother seems to think otherwise...
Her mother doesn't let her go the way she wants...
Her mother says the child is a disgrace to her friends...
Her mother lied to everyone about her results...
The child have to face everyone questioning her about her school...
The child have to lie to her relatives cause her mother doesn't want to throw face in front of the relatives...
















Who has this kind of mother? I has...

She ended her story at 12:02:00 AM

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Saturday, October 08, 2005

As many ppl ask me to update... hahaZ... I update liaoz... But quite an unhappy one larz... haha.. My baby is so cute right??? haha...

She ended her story at 3:14:00 PM

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Thousands, millions, zillions of emotions possessed me at this very moment...

As if I'm going to burst into tears at any time...

I just feel tightness in my chest... I can't breathe... I felt like jumping down my 13th storey flat with my baby... I felt like screaming out loud!!! I felt like... I felt like telling him I like him... But I can't... I'm afraid of the truth... Which is not what I want...

I'm just a breeze to everyone...

I've been have weird dreams lately... I dreamt of people I haven't seen for long... I'll slp at 2am, woke up at 5am... Toss and turn and sleep at 730 again... This have been happening for 3 days in a row... I have to wait till I see the sun... Weird... W-E-I-R-D is what I can say...

Am I suffering from depression or what? I don't know...

Maybe I need a shrink... Any recommendation???

I've lost my passion for a particular thing... But I just don't want to admit it... I still cling onto it knowing that the outcome, will be me falling hard onto the ground... I need a hand to pull me up... But the hand will never come... Though, I will lose nothing... But the good memories will disappear along with me letting go... And all my hard work will be wasted... Totally wasted...

Some may not know what I'm talking about... But just let me spill everything here...

She ended her story at 2:44:00 PM

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